Reflections of the Mind

When the day has been long or triggers have spiked, your emotions are high.

Can you be in two places at once, a contradictory position, like your heart and mind are in battle and in a state of war?

They say don’t disassociate, allow the feelings, be present, it will subside, but sometimes it actually doesn’t and the imminent need is survival.

I am only a human and am weighted by adversity, hearing that I'm expected to survive and overcome independently because I always feel ignorant. 

We are predisposed to inherently hold certain characteristics. Moreover, we are guided by experiences, trauma, endorphins. These all shape how we engage.

I have journeyed far and experienced great things while also having overwhelming struggles. I find myself now with the resolution to, at all costs, prioritise my peace. 

The darkness doesn't have to stay, you can tell it that it has had its time, and now it can kindly leave.

It is a one-man journey. This mountain is bigger than any other one I have ever climbed and the obstacles, the defeats are surely greater than any before. 

This is currently my daily battle as I grapple with the words of others. I know I'm wired with a sensitive nature, but gosh, it's hard not to let it hurt.

Life is unpredictable, and my human nature often decides before I am aware, but I can't let myself spiral into a place where I hold any regret.Because I am human, I falter and sometimes waver, but in the end I find myself and I come back to my identity that I ultimately try to never forget.

Your journey is yours. I know you wish help was more attainable to access, but unfortunately, it is not the true reality.