You Are The Main Voice

Chaos, influence, nurturing and pressure all impact how we navigate life. How we find ourselves. How we push through the hard and keep going.

I have been challenged as my capacity has shifted, and I am not able to do all I could before. Some days it feels like the boat is not moving despite me desperately rowing.

I have been surrounded and I’ve been isolated. I have had finances and not, had moments of great support and also moments where I am searching for help.

I have had varied experiences and, for me, I have found that, despite whatever the external factors, at the end of the day, I am left with myself.

I have found moments where others have been great lifelines and had space to lean, but at the end of the day, I am left to choose who has the most important voice.  

And if that voice is others, should it be? Because my mind is uncertain or doubtful at times and that is okay, life is hard and things can’t always be assured but will I be happy if I let others dictate my choice? 

This is something I am trying to lean into and often don't get right, yet the ability to acknowledge that and bring my focus back to me and the value of my own voice for my best is paramount.

Because the one who I contend with ultimately is me and I have great power and knowledge in what is best for me, therefore it does well for me to give myself time and patience, release the doubt.